hungry&tired

ramblings

My coworker keeps talking and I keep ignoring her because every time I start to listen I realize she’s complaining about nothing. I should feel bad, but I’ve told her to stop five times now. At one point she started reading off all the tools that we need to be proficient with for the board exam for no reason. Barbara, we know you’re old and bored but please don’t subject us to your random rumblings.

This is old.

I wrote this three weeks ago. The day I told you that we needed to take a step back. ———————————————————-

triv·i·al

adjective
of little worth or importance.

What makes something trivial? Who decides whether or not something is trivial? If something is trivial to you, is it trivial to me?

per·spec·tive

noun
the capacity to view things in their true relations or relative importance

Sometimes we lose perspective of what is important to us. This is when the day to day things become trivial to us. We forget that it’s the day to day things that are actually important. Soon enough, those “trivial” matters have huge importance and come crashing down on us. The things that you may find “trivial” mean a lot to me, not because I put a lot of weight in them, but because they let me know what’s going on in your life. It’s part of communicating with each other. It helps me get an idea of what’s going on in your life, and it makes me feel included.

Did you know that one year ago today, I met your parents for the first time? It’s amazing how much has changed since that day…

I can’t remember how it all happened. I don’t remember falling in love. I don’t even remember liking you at first. I thought you were attractive but it wasn’t why I talked to you. I talked to you because I was trying to be nice. I thought you would be a good friend. That was all I really wanted. I don’t understand how I could have let this all happen, but I did. Was I wrong to let myself slip into a relationship? It was fun and exciting, a good change of pace from what I was used to. But I’m fairly sure it wasn’t what I needed. The attention was really nice. And I really needed to get laid. Maybe it was just convenient and I didn’t care anymore. But I did care, I told you I couldn’t be with you. I ended up with you anyways. It was so hard to resist the temptation. I guess that was already a bad sign. I should have seen it, but like always I didn’t see it until it was way too late. I feel like I’m in that same place again. I don’t need a relationship, but I really need to get laid. What am I supposed to do about that? I wonder if someone can help me.

How To Tell If Somebody Loves You

If I could kiss one part of my body that I can’t physically kiss now, it would be my forehead.  I don’t know what it is, but forehead kisses are incredibly comforting.